This weekend=Rediculas!!!

I haven't had as much fun as I did this weekend in probably 4 years! I love love LOVE Road trips! Especially when your with fun laid back people....its nice being around laid back people for a change. Isnt it funny how some people "think" they are laid back....but when you step away from them you realize what a tigh wad they are? God thats oppressing. I think I really just miss having someone to hug on and cuddle with....but I dont think I miss anything else about them. They absolutely drug me into the mud. Im scared to death though, because what if I get in a relationship and it happens again? I dont know why I stayed with him that long, but then I realize that I tried to break up with him twice....and he wouldnt let me. IM glad I had a learning experience, but I wish it wouldnt have taken so much of my time....I really have to pray about when I want to move. It would make more sense in March because I would have my License back and wouldnt have to depend on anyone...HOWEVER, why should I stay here if I truly have no intention of making a life in Alabama? I could leave December 10th....I guess Im just scared. Scared to make another mistake, Scared to be misled again......Maybe I wouldnt be in the situation I am now if I wasnt always so scared? DAMN IT! I think its about time for me to just be selfish and take a jump and put myself out there. If I fall I know I have somewhere to come back so what do I have to lose? ABSOLUTELY NOTHING! Then again something else compltely different could happen and then all of this wouldnt matter.....does anyone else ever go through this? I feel like Im at the end of a fork, and I could take one of many roads, but Im stuck. Think I should just flip a coin?!